Anyone can make a movie.
Anyone can slop together a script, round up their friends, grab a camera, and run through the city at a breakneck pace shooting to their heart's content.
I know, because I did it many, many, times. And it was a lot of fun.
All of our early films were done this way. Hand on The Devil, The Easy Life, Family Man, and Suicide in The Modern Age were all made in this manner.
Fun fact: None of those films had scripts. I typed out 1-2 pages of notes and shots I wanted and we'd film them and add shit as we went along.
Today, I'm a little bit older and a little bit wiser. Our last film came out when I was 28 years old. Today, I'm 32.
A lot has changed. I'm more calculated. When I write, I scrutinize each and every word as it hits the page. I often second guess myself. Instead of throwing caution to the wind, I stare at a newly completed scene and think to myself, "Is this doable?"
Then, I usually delete that scene and stare at a sterile, white page.
As one gets older, life seems to get more complicated. It doesn't really make any sense. If humans were smarter, we'd deal with all the bullshit when we're young and start to coast as we enter adulthood.
If only it were that easy.
I'm a full-time worker and a full-time parent. My hair is graying. With each passing year, I earn a new scar or at least one extra pound. My schedule is always tight. The world doesn't seem to slow down until I'm in bed and finally close my eyes.
But absence makes the heart grow fonder and, with each day, my desire to get out there again and make movies again grows dramatically.
I shit you not - I literally think about it daily.
Yeah, it's been almost five years since our last project. But it's been zero days since I've not thought about what we're going to do next.
When the time makes itself available to work on my next screenplay or sharpen my craft, I pounce on it.
I've spent hundreds of hours learning from others about how to make myself a better filmmaker. I've lost count on how many tutorials I've used to educate myself on improving picture and color quality. How to record decent sound on a budget.
Of course, I've put in a lot of time on a screenplay, too. These days, I don't slop out shot lists and one-liners and pray it all comes together on set. I'm currently on my TENTH draft of just the first episode of a web series we're currently developing. An episode I first visualized around 2011, started making notes about in 2013, and now a tenth version of the same story I started writing just over two years ago.
I might be losing my mind.
And that's okay. Most days, I believe 100% in what I'm doing. I trust the process.
I'm a microfilmmaker with little budget and very little free time. When I step behind that camera in the near future, I want to make sure every shot counts. I want to put out a quality story that doesn't waste the time of my crew or an audience.
I think we're close. Maybe the eleventh draft is the charm.